My hope

This is a picture I took of a print of my digital artwork. I studied animation at Morehead State University in Kentucky. The satellite in the picture was part of my most ambitious project. It was so ambitious that 1990’s computers couldn’t handle it. Even though it was science fiction, I wanted this satellite to look like objects that have actually been in space.
I look at this picture every now and then and think about how my animation skills are the highest paying skills I have and how that makes finding some way to freelance with them my best chance of staying off the streets once I finally leave them. Of course, I specialized in that field because I love it, also. Much of the time that I have spent at the library has been going online and researching my dream setup if I were freelancing as an animator. I have dreamt of the right computer, monitor, input tablet (with the tablet on an easel next to the desk), motion capture devices, and other things that make your eyes glaze over like my mom’s did when I try to explain them.
I have also thought about how to get there. I know that the equipment to be a graphic designer (the job I held right out of college) is much cheaper. I’m not sure how to get to the graphic design stage from where I am now, but the thought that I will find a way, no matter what, gives me hope. I didn’t work all those years for this. I will find a way.

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Dad’s hope

Journal page 7 attached is dad’s drivers license in 1979 when he became homeless which was until 1997 when my sister and I picked him up and took him in forever changing our lives in a deep and profound way.

” I give thanks to God for the many blessings I have and hope others are so fortunate as I, because without the respect of others I am not happy or fulfilled. As a person of much compassion, I pray desperation will be eliminated (the last thing upon our minds) and that the children will be truly happy. There is so much to do that is good and at times, I get all hurried and have to let time guide me to contentment and peace of mind. My hobbies and my art help and I hope these words one day be an inspiration to who ever reads then, as well as my art”

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I want to work

Dad’s Journal page 5

“Anticipation, I look forward to going to work. It is comforting and exciting to me, to be able to earn some honest money. I know this is what I really need in my life again. Dignity! Self respect! I hope time will be kind to me so I can hold my head up proudly knowing I did not let them down. Being a grandfather is very important to me and why I need the satisfaction of being a man capable of earning .”

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3 Generations, 1 love

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Dad is no longer with us. This is from his journal, which we cherish. Page 1 William Warren Bostic

~”I’ve asked myself why I’m the way I am, and I suppose to myself I do the best I can to be my own best friend, yet at times I feel so lonely. A tormented mind is sad my dear friend. Disillusions and sorrow, no fun they depress even the best of us with twisted emotions and strife. Dragging ill fated past to present in a waste and indeed has little moral in positive nature except that belonging to poverty. I must face insecurity with the brightness of light that promotes faithful integrity, yes serenity and each battle won shall be a blessing. So my now, my today, I pray for the lonely, the lost and the poor as well and the rich and secure. My time is not wasted in vain. “

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tarp day…

this cool dude in the backpack gave us all tarps before the rain starts to fall…thank you sir, and thank you Jesus…

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Sleeping The Day Away

URL: http://www.facebook.com/wesley.norris.311

Don’t you wish sometimes you can just sleep the day away…all troubles…trials and tribulations…all foolishness …take my good friend pepper here…his day consists of being the ” unofficial ” guard dog swore to protect my mom…and he does a very good job of doing it…despite weighing like a sack of potatoes and having curly eyelashes…he’s a good dog who after a long day needs rest to do it all over again

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The Unknown

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how do you describe a two year old yorkieshire terrier ??? …out of control ??? hyper ??? attention grabber ??? ….momma”s boy ??? …. i dont see my friend Oscar in that light at all he is the most lovable…caring….smart….free spirit in your face with loving slimy kisses but when he is not ripping and running , getting into stuff he has the the most warmest heart in a four legged animal who will protect you to both ends of the earth

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The Golden Light

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i see this photo from my eyes in a photogenic and religious aspect because i see this as god looking down from the heavens keeping the bus driver and its passengers safe from harm but be blessed with safe travels to their seperate destinations

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A Homeless Voice

URL: http://hisd.life

Psst! Come closer. My biggest secret is that I am afraid of losing my mind and leaving my body behind to endure torture. After a weekend of partying hardcore in Hillcrest with forced acquaintances, it’s what I was terrified I would experience after days without sleep, food or a care in the world.

My middle sister invited me to come to California, after I ended a toxic relationship in Iowa. However, mental health challenges fueled intense arguments, which ended in my homelessness. Self-medication eased the fear and desperation for a while.

The smack of Reality’s hand was ruthless when I woke up in the closest hospital destitute, dirty and alone, wearing an inevitably revealing patient’s gown and an intravenous drip of nutrients for my badly-abused body. The sounds of the emergency room and its wails from machines and humans alike induced tears to erupt in flowing narrow trails over my sullen face.

At that moment, I prayed softly and knew I had fallen into the most wretched despair of my life, from which my soul needed to recover. That is what I am recovering from and every Smart Recovery meeting, every new friendship I make brings me the strength to continue into a life I’ve waited for.

When I left the hospital in the morning, the sun gave me the warmth I needed after my nightmare. I used the transit day pass given to me by the discharge planner at the hospital to ride on the trolley back and forth until I had a clear direction in my mind. That is when I made the commitment to work on a solution to homelessness, so no one else should go through the painful process of recovery from the shame and guilt that come from self-hatred and even a fall from the safety of employment and housing.

Starting over meant admitting I felt angry; I define anger as frustration over helplessness, as if life did not want me here and I was powerless to change the end of my story. I entered PATH with an open mind, to heal and pursue a better life. Since then, I’ve met a filmmaker who became my close friend and together we filmed the documentary “A Homeless Voice.” It reveals my struggle from substance abuse, mental challenges and the inspiration behind a plan I aim to present to the housing authorities for consideration. There is hope in me and I share it with all my cubies (at the transitional housing floor for men we sleep in cube-like areas). It’s available to watch for free: https://vimeo.com/186370132. You will feel as if you know me and hopefully, be inspired to hang on to living.

Every day brings something new and now, the joy of being in the moment and letting my past finally behind me.

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My Love

I am homeless. I live at PATH. A number of situations compiled together assisted in my detour to this destination. God is first in my life and I will give him all the praise for standing with me throughout this storm. Last year I lost the last of my family in Texas, my mom passed and the rest fractured. I suffered quietly until I broke. Every day, I way to say Thank you, Lord and to push forward. Presently I have a small check but I’m searching for low income housing. Let me introduce you to my granddaughter, her name is Drahkeese Mylove House. She is upset with me in the picture below because she doesn’t understand why I don’t have a house for her to come to. God will work it out and soon I pray she’ll be able to come visit grandma.

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Last Day

This is from a former and currently homeless person sharing the most happiest and saddest day of my life. Here I’m spending the last moments with my best friend, family, child and partner in crime before I was force against my will to give up my dog Zeus who I raise since he was 3 months old. And judging I think this might have been his too.

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Conveyor Belt

In the month of June at work I accidentally got my finger caught in a conveyor belt and almost took my finger off. There was blood every where, I was taken to work then the hospital where I was patch up and the doctors kept asking if I happen to have my nail with me.
Enjoy!

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Foggy Day

My name is Cathy and I took this picture at Palomar Mountain. The fog is how I feel at times. Being homeless and not sure what tomorrow brings can make me feel foggy. You can’t see in fog nor see the light. In this picture the same applies.

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I love art

THE OWNER

Hi, I am Ronaldo Lawerence Neree from Port au Prince, Haiti. Permanent Resident of the United States since 1991. Father of Oliver James Neree . I am a Graduate of West Orange High School, located in West Orange New Jersey. My Professional or formal training is in Fine Wines, Craft beers and Sprits, Customer Service, Non-Profit Expressive art therapist and Volunteer work in Ontario, Canada.

Being from Haiti and growing up in a melting pot like United States, I was offered the opportunity of trying out a multitude of cultural foods through my travels. I have learned to love food and enjoy eating a lot. I would like to share my exuberant personality, unique taste, and expert knowledge of multicultural food with the San Diego community. My passion for perusing a career in Business and hospitality Started in my adolescent .I was inspired to be a Wine sommelier; But then my aspirations grew when I became a father and husband and my focus quickly shifted for cooking for the love of it!

We will use Art, Music, food and meditation (workshops/events) to relate to and connect with other people in our community. We aim to provide the physical basis for works in the realms of the performing arts, new media art, film, radio, and video. I believe through these activities we can establish and maintain positive relationships with family, friends and co-workers contributes to our Social Wellness. To rise awareness among our community about Environmental Wellness and to recognize our own responsibility for the quality of the air, the water and the land that surrounds us. Participate in community events to increase ability to make a positive impact on the quality of our environment, be it our homes, our communities or our planet contributes to our Environmental Wellness

We are going submerge our mind into the rich liquids the world of Art, Food, Music, and Meditation has to enhance our day to day lives. This will open our minds to new ideas and experiences that can be applied to personal decisions, group interaction and community betterment. The desire to learn new concepts, improve skills and seek challenges in pursuit of lifelong learning contributes to our Intellectual Wellness.

We will look to Aikido practices/principles( I have practiced for over 12yrs) to increases the ability to maintain a healthy quality of life that allows us to get through our daily activities without undue fatigue or physical stress. The ability to recognize that our behaviors have a significant impact on our wellness and adopting healthful habits (routine check ups, a balanced diet, exercise, etc.) while avoiding destructive habits (tobacco, drugs, alcohol, over use of the human body in a non-constructive manner etc.) will lead to optimal Physical Wellness.

We offer a unique service where you not only receive a taste of Haitian American Fusion but also an experience for your mind ,body , olfactory system. You will get the smell and taste tout le monde ( of the World).Traditional German Brat worth and Great Fresh Breakfast / Lunch Menu. We will also offer fun mix of music coming from our Doors, as well as being served by a really awesome team memebers.

Our food we create will use local and organic produce whenever possible. This will allow us to offer you fresh handmade food that comes from our own back yard and insures the growth of local businesses . Our passion is healthy, affordable, first class food.

A catered menu should be fitting to your event. From NereeGoetz, every item is fresh and hand-made from as many local sources as possible. Should you not see the items you desire on the current menu, just ask, we are capable of creating many themes and food genres. Please contact us below for information about your event. We also do drop-off meals for office working lunches, or house parties; contact us for more information.

SOURCES

We have a deviation to multicultural food, our real passion is in fresh, unique, real food. This means using the best produce available to our community. Fresh, Local, sustainable food. If you can’t read, pronounce, or identify what is in it then don’t eat it. We have put a lot of thought and time into choosing our sources so that we can offer you great tasting real food from a local, sustainable company.

Wellness should include much more than physical health, exercise or nutrition. Full integration of states of physical, mental, and spiritual well-being is the way to a super healthy life right now and for the future generation. The model used by our Hall Of Members includes social, emotional, spiritual, environmental, occupational, intellectual and physical wellness. Each of these dimensions act and interact in a way that contributes to our own quality of life. Also help feed the hungry people of San Diego and Haiti where poverty is a part of many people’s everyday life.Raise awareness to better living through art, music foods and mediation practices.

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I love art

THE OWNER

Hi, I am Ronaldo Lawerence Neree from Port au Prince, Haiti. Permanent Resident of the United States since 1991. Father of Oliver James Neree . I am a Graduate of West Orange High School, located in West Orange New Jersey. My Professional or formal training is in Fine Wines, Craft beers and Sprits, Customer Service, Non-Profit Expressive art therapist and Volunteer work in Ontario, Canada.

Being from Haiti and growing up in a melting pot like United States, I was offered the opportunity of trying out a multitude of cultural foods through my travels. I have learned to love food and enjoy eating a lot. I would like to share my exuberant personality, unique taste, and expert knowledge of multicultural food with the San Diego community. My passion for perusing a career in Business and hospitality Started in my adolescent .I was inspired to be a Wine sommelier; But then my aspirations grew when I became a father and husband and my focus quickly shifted for cooking for the love of it!

We will use Art, Music, food and meditation (workshops/events) to relate to and connect with other people in our community. We aim to provide the physical basis for works in the realms of the performing arts, new media art, film, radio, and video. I believe through these activities we can establish and maintain positive relationships with family, friends and co-workers contributes to our Social Wellness. To rise awareness among our community about Environmental Wellness and to recognize our own responsibility for the quality of the air, the water and the land that surrounds us. Participate in community events to increase ability to make a positive impact on the quality of our environment, be it our homes, our communities or our planet contributes to our Environmental Wellness

We are going submerge our mind into the rich liquids the world of Art, Food, Music, and Meditation has to enhance our day to day lives. This will open our minds to new ideas and experiences that can be applied to personal decisions, group interaction and community betterment. The desire to learn new concepts, improve skills and seek challenges in pursuit of lifelong learning contributes to our Intellectual Wellness.

We will look to Aikido practices/principles( I have practiced for over 12yrs) to increases the ability to maintain a healthy quality of life that allows us to get through our daily activities without undue fatigue or physical stress. The ability to recognize that our behaviors have a significant impact on our wellness and adopting healthful habits (routine check ups, a balanced diet, exercise, etc.) while avoiding destructive habits (tobacco, drugs, alcohol, over use of the human body in a non-constructive manner etc.) will lead to optimal Physical Wellness.

We offer a unique service where you not only receive a taste of Haitian American Fusion but also an experience for your mind ,body , olfactory system. You will get the smell and taste tout le monde ( of the World).Traditional German Brat worth and Great Fresh Breakfast / Lunch Menu. We will also offer fun mix of music coming from our Doors, as well as being served by a really awesome team memebers.

Our food we create will use local and organic produce whenever possible. This will allow us to offer you fresh handmade food that comes from our own back yard and insures the growth of local businesses . Our passion is healthy, affordable, first class food.

A catered menu should be fitting to your event. From NereeGoetz, every item is fresh and hand-made from as many local sources as possible. Should you not see the items you desire on the current menu, just ask, we are capable of creating many themes and food genres. Please contact us below for information about your event. We also do drop-off meals for office working lunches, or house parties; contact us for more information.

SOURCES

We have a deviation to multicultural food, our real passion is in fresh, unique, real food. This means using the best produce available to our community. Fresh, Local, sustainable food. If you can’t read, pronounce, or identify what is in it then don’t eat it. We have put a lot of thought and time into choosing our sources so that we can offer you great tasting real food from a local, sustainable company.

Wellness should include much more than physical health, exercise or nutrition. Full integration of states of physical, mental, and spiritual well-being is the way to a super healthy life right now and for the future generation. The model used by our Hall Of Members includes social, emotional, spiritual, environmental, occupational, intellectual and physical wellness. Each of these dimensions act and interact in a way that contributes to our own quality of life. Also help feed the hungry people of San Diego and Haiti where poverty is a part of many people’s everyday life.Raise awareness to better living through art, music foods and mediation practices.

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Page 4: Demolition Darby

URL: https://www.instagram.com/thizbee.sez/

Darby also does Roller Derby. She’s smart, AND tough.

While I was homeless, she wanted to take me skating, to see what I would remember, because I had grown up skating the defying side walks of Chula Vista, and going to Roller Skate Land at the mall.

Really, it was all muscle memory and at first, it took me a while to remember. My brain still can’t process skating in the opposite direction… my movements are very machanical.

But, by the end of the session, I was able to skate squatting with one leg stretched out in front… for just a few seconds… and there were a bunch of moves I had no idea my body would remember, like skating backwards and cutbacks.

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Page 3: Me and my avatar

URL: https://www.instagram.com/thizbee.sez/

The last year has changed me…. or maybe I was changing and it took the last year to begin to see what I am to become. Cus whatever that is… “Me” I don’t have a clear picture yet.
Thats what it’s to have organic personality disorder. Not knowing who you are, because who you were…. is gone.
What I do know, is I will never be the person I was before the TBI. (I used to be more “girly,” and now I don’t wear dresses and I cut my hair into a mohawk.)

And what I’m starting to suspect… that I’m never gonna be like I was before I went into the hospital, even.

I’m alot angrier. And fearful. And sad.

This is me and my avatar, trying to figure out what the f*ck we are.

I got one thing though…. Zaffre

Whoever I am now…. Thats my favorite color. Its like Cobalt Blue, with a little purple mixed in.

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page 2: Time to take care of myself

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Page 2

While still at PATH (Recovery/Homeless Shelter) I won 2 tickets to The Museum of Natural History in Balboa Park at a monthly Brain Injury Support Group I attend. I decided to take my daughter Darby; I knew she would love it. After the museum we walked around Balboa Park, one of my favorite places.

Darby says, she may look like Daria, but she’s really Quinn on the inside.

Just before Darby turned 18, she said, “you don’t need to take care of me anymore, its time to take care of yourself.”

Thats when I knew I needed to go to the Hospital.

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page 1: so I do ART instead

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page 1

In the last year, I lost a 7 year relationship, my sole source of income, my home, and eventually my wellbeing resulting in complications with my Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I ended up in 4 different Hospitals in 40 days.

Stress and TBI are not friends!

When I left the Hospital I entered PATH (Recovery / Homeless Shelter) in the Restorative Bed Program. By this time I had tried a dozen or so meds to deal with newly diagnosed Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Organic Personality Disorder. But it turns out Im highly sensitive and had severe allergic reactions to all of them.

Since then I have seen a Neurologist who says its high! unlikely I will be successful with any medication due to Neurological problems. He recommended a treatment insurance won’t cover….

So I do ART instead.

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Christmas Eve 2015

URL: http://www.AlecDawson.net

December 2015, my mother and I are living by ourselves and our relatives are in other countries and continents. Faced with the spectre of trying to celebrate a family oriented holiday with just the two of us, we started scratching our heads to determine what we were going to do for the holiday.

It occurred to me that in lieu of buy in each other presents or making a lavish holiday dinner (for two?), that we could do some good for others during this melancholic time. I called several organizations that the the homeless and was surprised to find that there are an excess of volunteers and food donations during the Christmas holiday. I spoke to the director of Dignity Delivers, inquiring how I could help. She recommended that we buy and hand out tarps. I purchased 80 tarps and some paracord via some wholesalers on the internet.

On the morning of December 24, 2015, my friends, my mother, and I handed out 80 tarps to the homeless in downtown San Diego. The supplies went quickly, it really wasn’t enough for the number of homeless in that area of downtown.

That is when I met, Martin. Martin has inspired me to pick up the proverbial torch and create this website as a means for the homeless to share their photographs along with their stories. (This post is dedicated to you, Martin.)

I’ve created this website / project to provide a vehicle for the homeless to share photographic narratives, show us what they see and experience, and to provide them an opportunity to be self expressed.

 

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